Growing

My last post was about how I am okay with accepting help from others.  

Today that "okay" was challenged. 

And I was not.a.fan.  

There are a few facts you should know about me before I continue:

1. I have been working since I was 14.

2. I have been living on my own / paying my own bills / completely independent since 17.

3. I am not one to openly admit when I need help or ask for it. EVER. 

Having said that and also the fact that {I am super grateful that we DO have the support around us right now} I have to admit that I am not 100% comfortable accepting help in any form.  

I know that we can't do everything on our own...

Though I still feel like I should be able to.

But for some reason I still feel inadequate when there is someone else helping with something I think I should be doing.  

I feel defeated...like a fraud. 

 I know that the reason we have family / friends / a church family

is to help when we need it but I feel like I should be able to handle everything, all the time.

Then a thought occured to me...maybe others feel this way?  

Am I crazy? Do you like accepting help from others? Is it just me?   

After all was said and done today I realized one thing.  

I am growing. 

I might not be comfortable asking for help or admitting when I need it but at least I am asking for it.  

A few years or months ago the thought would never have crossed my mind to even ask for help.  

Today I am accepting it from all areas. 

 I am growing and that is what life is all about. 

 Life is about stepping out of our comfort zone so we can grow as an individual, as a Mom, as a family.. 

and that is a wonderful thing :)

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